I'm actually relieved that Dave told me today that he never loved me, he was just using me because he knew that I loved him enough that I would do anything for him without expecting anything in return. At least now I know that love isn't like that and inflicting that amount of pain on the person that you claim you once loved is not normal or acceptable under any circumstances. I know without a doubt that I am 100x better than him and equally better off without him, so it's nice to sort of break free from that. Now if only I could NOT get a million emails from him every day... that would be amazing. I put up with his shit for 2 years... we're over, so shouldn't I get some kind of reward for coming out of that alive instead of more shit for not being with him???